January 3rd, 2018
I wanted to share everything I had written throughout my time in rehab. I didn’t feel like it captured the very essence of my active addiction.
And then I came across this poem I wrote during of my group sessions:
I promised myself I would never compromise my values. I lied.
I promised myself I would treat myself with more love respect “next time.” I lied.
I promised myself I would be kinder to those who loved me. I lied.
I promised myself I would visit my family more. I lied.
I promised myself I wouldn’t use again. I lied.
I promised myself I would get the help I needed (after using one last time). I lied.
I promised my sister I would be home to see my niece and nephew. I lied.
I promised my therapist I would schedule an appointment to discuss rehab options. I lied.
I promised my father that I was doing the “right” thing. I lied.
I promised my mother that “I was fine.” I lied.
I promised God I would start listening to Her instead of the drugs. I lied.
I promised I would never sell my soul to feed my addiction. I lied.
I promised myself I would never let the drugs and alcohol get out of control.
I promised myself and my family that I would do whatever it takes to live one day at a time, clean, sober, and connected.
This time I didn’t lie.
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