December 30th, 2012
If we are not learning, growing, expanding and taking action, then we’re dying a slow death.
Thank you 2012 for kicking my ass and teaching me these beautiful lessons.
1. Outward success doesn’t mean anything if the home front is falling apart.
Ok, I admit it. I work. A lot. I work to the point where I forget to pick up the phone and call friends and family. I work to the point where I neglect my physical well-being. Everything becomes secondary. Everything. The day that I decided to put me first was the day that the doors opened up to true success. Suddenly I was no longer living my life around my business. Instead, My business was an extension of who I was and I was living my life around it. It takes commitment, dedication, massive accountability, and trust. I’m still working on it but now more than ever, as my company starts to grow and new opportunities are created, I am focused on what matters the most- my health, my marriage, my friendships, and my family.
2. Even when you think you have “gotten over” something, it still shows up.
I’m a personal growth junkie. I love anything and everything to do with the human condition. It’s no surprise that I chose this path. And with that, comes a sense of arrogance and “oh, I got that handled..I’m over that.” Wrong. The biggest lesson that I learned was that if I was still experiencing the same breakdowns repeatedly, then clearly there was something in my past that was still creeping up. Back to the drawing board. Heal the past. Access to freedom.
3. My mother is a lovely human being.
This one was the longest and hardest for me to learn. I had been making my mother out to be the “bad guy” for the past 30 years. I blamed her for everything wrong in my life. I always knew intellectually that I did this but it wasn’t until she came to visit me for a week and I spent every minute with her, to truly “get” that I was making her pay. Pay for my childhood, my teens, and my young adulthood. What I really got, was that I was making Geetha Kumar, “the mom” wrong. But when I stepped back and saw her for who she was- Geetha Kumar, a divine creation, it hit me on a visceral level. I am her. She is me. Any sort of resentment that I hold towards her will inevitably hold me back from truly being free, a value that is of utmost importance to me. I love talking to her now, and we can go on for hours. But what I most love, is the emotional and mental freedom that I experience having let go of my commitment to making my mother wrong.
4. If I’m not making people uncomfortable, I’m not speaking to make a difference.
I love to be loved. I love to be accepted. So much so that I would filter my message just a little bit so I wouldn’t piss anyone off. I recently had a mentor tell me, “If you aren’t speaking to make a difference, shut up.” Wow. Heard that one loud and clear. I was still trying to get love and be accepted rather than speaking my truth. It was as if every single memory of being bullied was right in my face. I got it. For the most part I definitely spoke what was in my heart, but I always knew there was a part of me that was terrified to really share my truth in its raw form. Well, I’m done with that. I may piss some people, and I may touch the lives of many. At the end of the day, I have one question that I need to be answering, “Did I speak to make a difference, or did I speak to get my ego needs met?” Period.
5. I’m not meant to serve everyone.
If I could, I would go door-to-door to every person’s house and and have a conversation with them. I would want to help them see that anything is possible, that they are here for reason and that they can create anything that they want. This year was all about coming to terms with the fact that not everyone will work with me. In fact, despite all the people that I talk to, follow me via social media, join me on my free calls, watch me on TV—>not everyone will take action. And in fact, most won’t. It breaks my heart. I have a ton of hope and faith in humanity. At some point, you either get busy living, or you get busy dying. My responsibility is to provide resources, knowledge, and access to programs and services that will move the human race forward. It took me surrendering completely, to learn this lesson. The beauty of all of it was when I completely surrendered, I was able to do my life’s work from a place of total commitment and detachment.
6. What is meant for me will find its way into my life.
Once again, the conversation is about trust and surrender. My job is to stay hungry, humble, in service, and take conscious and consistent action. I was at the final stage of signing two major contracts at the beginning of 2012. It didn’t happen. I was crushed, disappointed, and blamed myself. I had submitted two kick-ass proposals and at the end of the day, they decided to go with someone else. Looking back on it, it’s clear that that opportunity was not meant for me. I used that “let down” and focused all of my energy on creating something brand new, something close to my heart: SOURCE of YOUR SUCCESS. The program was created as an expression of what is possible when you take everything that you perceive as wrong, and unjust, and unfair, and channel it towards teaching the lessons learned and making the lives of others better. And, happy to share that 2013 is looking better than ever with exciting new projects that totally have me doing a happy dance as I write this
What God intended for you goes far beyond anything you can imagine. ~Oprah Winfrey