I owe you an explanation.

Hey,

I woke up today with the weirdest feeling in my stomach.

I have been on one of the wildest adventures of my life this past year.

-Taking a step back from my coaching practice
-Moving to austin
-Going to vegetarian culinary school
-Spending my summer in India
-Studying the ancient healing system of Ayurveda
-Writing my first Kindle book, “The Way of Ayurveda: Stop Dieting, Start Living.
-Being on Food Network’s Food Truck Face Off
-Coming back to working with people in the form of groups and my newest offering, “Vasavi on Call Concierge Service”

While I have brought you along for the ride, what I haven’t done a “good” job with is explaining my WHY.

So I get it.

To the outside world, my actions may seem flighty, indecisive, unrelated, and just plain old impulsive.

I don’t blame you one bit.

And that’s why I am writing to you.

I take it as my full responsibility to be engaged and have an intimate and transparent relationship with you.

Here goes:

Back in September 2013 I was exhausted and burnt out. My health, marriage, relationships, and overall well-being were total shit.

I was sick and tired of coaching. And even more than that, I was sick and tired of myself.

So I did what I do best. I hit the brakes. It just didn’t feel good anymore. And I knew that there was no way I could continue on “helping” other people without helping myself.

It was time for a shift. It was time for me to step back, have some fun, try something new and just CHILL.

I went to culinary school at The Natural Epicurean Academy of Culinary Arts.

With absolutely no intention of becoming a chef or working in a kitchen.

Here’s the thing. I don’t do things for an end result. I do it for the experience. And that to me is more important than always reaching and striving for a goal.

In culinary school I had the best time, learned and refined my cooking skills.

I also applied to be on Food Network’s Food Truck Face Off.

Not because I wanted to win a food truck.

But because I wanted to experience being on a competition show and cooking in a food truck with my dad. THAT’S IT.

When I graduated in June I still felt like something was missing.

What I really want you get is this:

Only you know what you need. And don’t ever let other people’s perception of you stop you from being on your quest for whatever it is you are looking for. (click to tweet)

I set off to go to India for a few months with my mom and while I was there I studied Ayurveda nutrition, massage therapy, and the fundamentals of this ancient healing system.

Did I have plans of becoming an Ayurvedic practitioner or massage therapist?

Absolutely not.

I did it because I wanted to learn more about something that I had interest in.

What I didn’t think would happen was that my life would completely change as a result of this learning. I didn’t think that I would learn to accept myself fully as a result of this learning.

While I was there I focused all my creative energy into writing my first Kindle book, The Way of Ayurveda: Stop Dieting, Start Living.

I incorporated many of the self care routines as prescribed by the texts of Ayurveda in my own life (daily oil massages, herbal treatments, pacifying teas, and eating according to my dosha, or “type”)

By the way, I understand that not everyone has the luxury and privilege of picking up and just moving or spending a few months in India.

I wouldn’t have been able to do ANY of this without the financial and emotional support of my family and friends.

I have intentionally set up my life so that if I do need to take a step back, I have the freedom to do so. And that’s exactly what I did.

I’m now back in Austin, and have come back full circle.

You may still be wondering, “Vasavi, why did you do all of that just to come back to what you were already doing in the first place?”

It’s quite simple. And beautifully said here by Danielle Laporte:

Sometimes, you need to turn away from something so you can see why you fell in love in the first place. (click to tweet)

I had to step away.

Step away from my coaching practice, my marriage, my routine, and my hustle.

And take the time to redefine every area of my life—on my terms.

The kind of clarity I now have is priceless. And I would not have been able to get to THIS place of clarity and alignment had I not stepped away.

Sometimes, you just gotta say HOLD ON. And that’s what I did.

I love to love. And I love to give. And last year I resented every bit of it.

What was missing was me. I was so busy loving and giving to others, that I forgot about the most important person in my life—me.

From some of you that may sound narcissistic or straight up selfish.

But let me tell you this, I have more to give and more love, kindness and patience than I have ever had.

I had to give it to myself first.

If that means that to the outside I temporarily looked crazy because I have been on this whirlwind roller coaster— so be it.

I’m back. Primed to contribute from a full place.

My journey has helped redefine not only who I am as a person, but also how I will continue to contribute and serve you better. Stay tuned.

And, I thank you for joining me on this ride.

My entire brand is rooted in transparency and open communication. So if you have any questions at all, just email me at vasavi@vasavkumar.com or write in the discussion below.

Can’t wait to talk to you.

Love
Vasavi